How it went, 2020?

2020 started well. Do you know? New year new me resolution, With the same old goals from the years before? You know you had struggled with it the years before and never or rarely accomplished anything. Sometimes, new plans come along, and other goals stop existing. What happened with your goals in 2020 that is different from 2019, 2018, and so on?

Goals 2020

Since I finished school, I have had no real goals. There were things that I always wanted to do but never did them long enough. In previous years, I've made many action plans (all failed). Did they fail because they were not good enough? who knows? I know that I never followed them.

What changed in 2020? Only a little before my old goals. But I got new goals which I have been working on seriously, as writing this blog. I won't say I was consistent, but I worked on my consistency. Still working hard because I need to figure out what to write all the time. Sometimes I got an idea that I ended up never posting. Sometimes, last-minute topic change. Sometimes, I take too long to write a topic because I'm still dealing with the subject. Choosing a time for posting is 10 AM on Wednesday, but only some weeks are the same.

I always thought that when I was in school, I was disciplined. Guess what? I was not. It is easy to say you are disciplined when you have a deadline versus the one you decide to change anytime you want. There is also this estimation of time something will take, what you need for that and how to finally do it. It is easier not to do it than to try it 20 times and fail. There are things I learned in 2020.

2021 best version of myself?

Every year we try to become the best version of ourselves. More if we have been stuck so long in the same place. That makes it even harder to keep moving forward. The reason why I do what I'm doing is not because I'm good at it. I never thought about having a blog, a YouTube channel, or writing songs. I still keep doing it when I'm struggling because I'm convinced that the Lord wants me to do it. I got back the joy and goals I lost in the previous years. Not how I thought I would get them, but in a more exciting way. It's like building in silence, moving slowly while enjoying the process. Something I never did because I was always impatient. I don't know what all this will become, but I will give it all, even when nobody is watching or reading. It provides me with space to work on and get better at what I'm doing. After all, I'm not doing it for the people but for God for the people.

I can write about everything that went wrong in 2020, but know that the Lord is coming soon!

Be blessed, and stay blessed!