Everything can change

I'm sitting at the doctor's office today for an examination. I'm asking for a blood test. My blood is raging inside of me. I feel like my job failed to protect me, which made me work anxiously for more than a year. But I'm feeling kind of very sick with pain overall in my body in a different sequence. So, I decided to go to the doctor and trust the lord. I don't want to believe I lived all my life the best I could, and a job I wanted ends up getting me a deadly disease or something. I blame myself for not standing up for myself last year when the accident happened. I decided to trust unquestioningly in the experience of some people and not care for myself enough to examine myself. At that moment, I realized that "In your life, everything can change'.

My job and what happened

I work as a histology analyst; it is a risky job when it comes to infections. I work with fresh tissue that is highly infectious. It is essential to be aware of needlestick injury and to know how to report it. In my case, I was new at work for about six months when I got into my first needlestick injury. At first, I ignored it, but then I remembered that I was working with highly infectious tissue, so I approached people who had worked in that field for years; I'm talking about 30-plus years. They told me, "No blood means everything is ok," so I believe it, but I realize that now, when I'm working with fresh tissue, I'm paranoid about it. To the extent that I think I have some disorder.

What did the doctor say?

She asked me questions about what I felt, and she couldn't understand what was wrong with me. She asked me if I was stressed at work for the follow-up test. I'm getting a blood test, and within 2 weeks, I need to go back to listen to what might be the problem.

I'm praying that everything is ok. I think about what happened back then daily. Why didn't I see any blood coming out? Do I need to see blood? Does that mean no blood is saved? What if my negligence about myself put someone else in danger as well? I pray that everything is just a lesson for myself.

Moral of the story

It's good to stand up for yourself when something jeopardizes your health. No matter if it is work or not! It might be not easy, but your health is more important than making money.

Be blessed, and stay blessed!