The Performance.

II never thought that I would perform or sing again. I didn't consider myself very talented. Still, the Lord knew how to prepare me for this. I was not nervous initially because I had been preparing for it for nearly two months. At one point, it even looked like it won't even happen.

In 2019, since this song was written. I never thought someone else would hear it. I thought I would never leave my room. As I've said, I'm not a singer or a songwriter. Still, God has his ways of opening doors and making ways for me to do things I never thought I would do.

Last time

I liked singing when I was younger. I used to sing with my sister and her friends. They had many groups, but I was too young to be part of the group. I also used to be in a choir. The last time I sang was when I was 16 years old. After that, maybe one year later, we had prepared for a performance, but that day I was hoarse. From that day till today, I still feel my throat. That's why I don't sing anymore (only in my room). Or if I do, I hit only low tones. It all can come together that I never learned the proper techniques.

My first guitar

I got my first guitar when I was 18, after crying to my mom for many years. Finally, She got tired and bought me one. That guitar was the definition of cheap and sounded terrible. The bridge was too high also the frets were out of proportion. As soon as I got my first paycheck, I bought a new one. Anyway, thanks, mom. Since then, I have had many moments to be in front of people. But I never saw it as a preparation for what was coming next.

Through the years, I didn't progress as I wanted. My progress could have been faster and with a lot of procrastination. At that age, we are already used to bad habits and don't have the time we had when we were kids. We were carefree and had plenty of time to play. A time that could have been of good use. After getting the chance to do it many years later, it still excites me. Still, I never knew how to deal with it once I finally got the chance. I don't want to say that it would have been different if I had gotten it years earlier.

Whether therefore ye eat, or drink, or whatsoever ye do, do all to the glory of God. 1 Corinthians 10:31

26 September, performance day

At first, I wasn't nervous. Minutes before signing, I got the worst toothache after drinking some thee. Maybe, satan was after me and didn't want me to sing. Or it was God's way of testing me. I just wanted to cry from the pain, but I couldn't run away. I needed to sing anyways. So, my turn came around. I got on the stage. I wasn't nervous until they came rushing unto me to put a mike for my guitar. When you just needed to plug in the cable, there was no time for that. I don't like last-minute changes! That's what made me nervous. There, the only thing that I could do was shake it off and do what I came to do.

Before the performance day, I thought I wouldn't be part of the program anymore. The one that needed to contact me never did. After reaching the organizer, I knew what I needed to do.

Moral of the story

After all, the Lord is not searching for the most talented but the one that would like to be used by Him. The Lord will always have a way of opening doors. Even in things you thought you would never do again. No matter what your story is. There is always a first time that looks like defeat, but triumph will come!

Be blessed, stay blessed.