What if everything was about me?

Sometimes I question things that the Lord does because I do not understand how it is good for me. I look and see that everybody is getting blessed but me. Everybody is getting a partner but me; why not me?

The Bible says the Lord has good plans for us and loves us. Sometimes I wonder if he does love me. Why isn't He answering my prayer? Maybe He did, but not the way I expected. Perhaps He did, but I don't see it yet. Or maybe He didn't? Being guided by the Lord is difficult. We need to walk by faith, but having faith sometimes requires a lot of waiting. We may see only why I'm waiting this long: I'm ready to receive what I've prayed for.

My prayers

I pray for healing to have a healthy relationship because I lack empathy. Also, I pray for a partner who will love God and our family and me. I pray for my visions that He gave me, that by faith and trust that He will and is providing for them, they will come to pass when the time is right.

When is the time?

We believe that God's timing is perfect, but sometimes we are scared we've missed his timing for our lives. It's hard to know what He wants, when He wants it, and how. The timing in our head might not match his timing, leading us to discouragement. I trusted the Lord that he wanted me to start this blog, so I did. Still, I'm seeing any fruit. I expected He would bring people many times, but that didn't happen. Then I took my next step in faith and paid for the domain, thinking there would be traffic this time, still waiting in faith. I'm wondering if I'm doing the right thing. Was it the Lord, is the timing wrong, are my expectations false?

The same happened with Youtube; the year I was the most consistent, I didn't get any fruit, which discouraged me. Still, I want to keep going because there is this desire in me to sing and write for the glory of God. I desire to do His will because His plans are better than mine. Do you think the same?

Moral of the story

It's not about how many people you get but about obedience to the Lord even when not giving fruit. He will use your work by faith in His timing, which will blow your mind. What if everything was about me? A process to work on me?

We wait on the Lord for many things, but sometimes it looks like everybody else is getting blessed but you. What if everything He is doing that doesn't look like a blessing is all about you and not others?

Be blessed, and stay blessed