Who is my husband?

Yesterday, I wrote about the desire that most women have to find who their husband is. When will he come and find them so they can finally be happy? It is like their ultimate lifetime goal. So, who is my husband?

Today, I woke up praying to Jesus to help me put him first thing in the morning because I always choose to sleep in the morning. For the last 3 to 4 weeks, I have been reading the Bible on the train. I prayed to read it as soon as I woke up because I needed his help.

When I reached the station, I asked him, "What do you want me to read today?" He told me John 4:1-42. For the ones that don't know, John 4 is about the Samaritan woman whom Jesus asked for water from the well and said to her that if she drank from Him, she would never be thirsty again. But my question was, why did he tell her to call her husband, but she had no husband? I wondered what the Lord wanted to say to me when I read it. That the one I want to be my husband right now is not my husband? Then, I read the commentaries of verses 16 and 18.

16. This word was intended to touch her conscience by referring to her history of immorality so that she would repent of her sins.

That means that the Lord wants me to repent for my immorality. He is calling me to repentance, something I have been dealing with, because I don't know if I'm honest about repentance. It is not only about immoral sins but any other sins.

18. The woman tried her first husband, drinking that "water," and she was not satisfied. Then she tried the second, third, fourth, and fifth husbands. Since none of these satisfied her, she was trying to find another. Her changing husband's fully proved that however much she drank of that "water," she was still thirsty. "Everyone who drinks of this water shall thirst again." This word of the Lord's is true!

This woman tried to fulfill her thirst with all those husbands, but only God could satisfy her. She was drinking from the wrong well. What she needed was Jesus. What we need is Jesus. What I need is Jesus because only he can fulfill me. A husband will never be able to fill the place of Jesus. Jesus is my first husband, and whoever I put in front of him, I commit immorality. It deep! I want to find my first love again!

My prayer for today:

I pray that I can find my first love because I have forsaken my first love, for God to clean me from all my immorality and sins, and for him to give me the heart of repentance.

That Jesus is all I need to be happy!