Work, work, work!
Life has become work, home, cleaning, church, and sleeping. Labor takes the majority of my time a week.
Life Lately
I Work four times a week, 9 hours a day, plus 3 hour traveling. That is 48 hours, without counting my hours, to prepare for work and other inconveniences. Is this way how life needs to be? I don't have the desire to work like that till the day I die. There is a desire burning in me that the Lord has something better for me, something different. The work He wants me to do requires a lot of faith and trust that He will provide for the vision He gave me.
Vision
The Lord wanted me to launch this blog, my YouTube channel, and a postcard business. I launched this blog and YouTube channel with the hope ta that the Lord is the one who gave it to me, He would send me a lot of viewers and subscribers for both of them, but that is still the case 3 years after. I launched my blog in 2020 and YouTube in 2019. I've tried many times by being consistent, having no fruit, getting discouraged, and still feeling this is what I want you to do. Some days I am still trying to figure out what to write, which is why I only write for a short time.
It's about me
I know the Lord has an excellent plan for my plans, but is my heart and my focus correct? I know I'm doing this because the Lord wants me to do it, but I also do it because it will provide me with a better life than I do now. It is not that my life is terrible, only is not what I see myself doing for the rest of my life. It's ok. I like and enjoy it, but I still have this nudge that I don't belong there. It can be that the Lord created me to work like a slave like that for the rest of my life. I have plans I want to accomplish, but with what I am making right now, some goals will never be achieved. This job is a blessing I prayed for, and I got it. I got where he wanted me to be, and I wanted to be ready whenever he told me to move.
When it's time?
I am happy with my job because God showed his faithfulness by showing me that he could do what I couldn't do on my own. He has the right timing, the right place, and the right people. Even though it is not, I've only asked what he wanted to give me. Life is only work, but I am learning to use my free time ( mostly on trains) by doing what I can: writing articles, taking pictures, drawing, etc. I can use that time to be as productive as possible because I get home and don't want to do anything when I get home. I focus on it a day at a time. Today I've written this, and tomorrow proofread it; I can also make the canvas for the article.
Trusting the Lord
He gave me a vision, and I need to trust it while doing my part in it. Using my time as best as possible is a skill that I will need when my blog, YouTube, and future business starts giving fruit. It is now in the unknown. I need to keep pushing and trying and have faith in my dreams.
Be blessed, and stay blessed!
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